Nothing in the Past
For far too long I've had high hopes in things that were superficial at best. It's been crazy, I've been crazy to have tried to see the world as something where achieving wants is instantaneous. Where the thoughts in my head can be made into reality. I've just thought too much that I could get anything and everything I wanted, only to realize that that's not how the world works. Finding the things one truly can fall in love with starts with the self. During the past few days, starting from when I woke up anti-social again -- this time it wasn't accompanied by depression which made me began to think that there was something else brewing -- I have began to realize that I have a mind's eye. Now I can tell where my mindset is. Like when talking to a girl or getting really stoned, the creative part of the brain with all the silliness, hopes and dreams kicks in. At this point I no longer thing in terms of what is actually happening in the moment. I'm lost in m