Finding Bliss

I can see from where I stand, that I've never left the peak. It's so hard to leave home. Mother says its time to fly but all I do is perch and feed. My wings... Why am I afraid to fly? To soar with the eagles? I don't want to be alone, yet I am. I'm still 10 years old, aware and so scared to be in a world without my parent.

One step every day. Only I can make the changes for my life. Only I can hold myself down. To break free, I must cut a path and find a way..

I need to remind myself to keep lone-wolfing  for some time. Not ready to follow the howls of others.

I feel like I'm growing so fast. Feels like March was only yesterday, but now it is today. So little time yet so much has happened, perhaps it has been a long time. Nights like these I tend to look back from the present to my last benchmark and think about what I have lost, gained and who I have become. A few things come to mind, some things I cannot say that I have lost them completely, perhaps just disconnected in part or in whole. To be the person I am today, I have let go of many friendships, relationships, hopes, dreams, jobs, titles, habits, and perceptions. I have thrown them to the wind and maybe they will cross my path one day, maybe not. Either way, I press on. To be the person I am today, I have trimmed the fat to gain confidence, vision, understanding of myself, trust and love in myself for myself, strength, stability, comfort, and happiness. It is strange, I am just falling deeper into life, taking paths and opportunities that just make sense. I feel things strongl...