Surrender
I stop writing for a while, thinking that I don't need it, but the truth is that I do. Months later and now I realize that I'm still depressed. I am behind on my school work and I just can't find the motivation to do so. Ting is, I wanna be a leader, how can I ever land a leadership position if I can't even motivate myself? How am I supposed to motivate others when I don't even have it set for me. Perhaps I should start thinking of myself as an organization. One that has needs and is motivated by incentives. What is the problem? The problem is that I have all this school work I am held back on. The need is that I have to graduate. The only ones that can do it are my brain and my heart. Nothing keeps my brain from going for it, so there is a problem with my heart. My heart is so separate from my brain now. Why is there that disconnection? I can say all the things I hate about myself... but the truth is that maybe I just need to recognize what I am and who I have beco...